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2

Throughout the road to 24, the number 2 has always been emphasized. Significant messages are encased in number 2. Number 2 picked up where the Number 1 ended and a new cycle began. November as in 11 is a mystical month but the most dreadful of them all is February as in 2. Even as I write this I cringe as if I am in possession of the vilest thing but, of course, the shadow lies within me and it’s not because of an outside force that I react this way.

I’ve read that people with 7 life paths had abused their chances at love and relationships at some point in their past lives. I honestly did find it an enlightening fact; it’s as if my heart also acknowledged it to be plausible. It conveniently explained away my abomination for February in addition to past experiences in this present lifetime – crushed hopes and unrequited loves all made it too easy to dismiss the month as a curse. Little did I know at the time, however, that apart from being a late bloomer in love I was really destined to have my first boyfriend at 25-26 years old.

As much as I dreaded talking about the inevitable, I must put it in writing that I might learn something new this coming February.  Imagine me rolling my eyes as I am typing this. I remember how my first relationship ended the day after February 14th; he broke up with me, a decision which I understood too late. Seven years later found me in a second serious relationship and it was a February. February 14th didn’t go quite as well as I expected – my mood was ruined by a misunderstanding that got me seething for I don’t know how long while my angels gently whispered to my heart to let the anger go.

 

 

I did have a memorable and significant dream about ELK last night after wondering whether this month would end without him gracing my nocturnal world. I wrote about it a few hours after I woke up; it was an easy dream to trace and it was short but sweet. I could care less what it meant; my wish was fulfilled. After writing down the dream in my journal, it occurred to me there was a pattern in the dates across the significant dreams he was in. I had a dream about ELK on the days(because I get dreams during daytime nap, too)/nights of November 24th, December 24th and January 24th. I know I was told the 24th year from my 15th year would be the culmination of the “prophecy”. In the December 24th dream, the number 24 was apparent in the form of dozen eggs he purchased which miraculously doubled.

Towards dusk my insecurities surfaced and it made me reflect with a heavy heart on how the last hurdle can be even more painful it makes you want to give up. You feel like no light can shine through the difficulties you’re experiencing, including those even you created in your mind. But a courageous part of you remains strong because somehow it knows things will turn out right, you just don’t know how it will.

Case in point – I was heading to a coffee shop for coffee  while in this gloomy reverie and the line of a song I heard when I pushed the door open was, “I wanna see you be brave” from Sarah Bareilles’s song, Brave.

Never give up, thrice they told me. 

 

‎LXXVII

I have encountered the number 77 repeatedly since last week but the sign seems to have reached to a peak for the past two days. Unwittingly I would be alerted to the number 77 on my phone. I knew I had checked out the numerology meaning before for this repetition constantly demanding my attention but I decided to do a Google search again last night to refresh my memory.

The website ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes has this to say about seeing number 77 repeatedly:

Angel Number 77 indicates that you have listened to Divine guidance and are now putting that wisdom to work in your day-to-day life. Your desires and wishes are coming to fruition in your life as a direct result of your actions and positive attitude to life, and the time has come to reap the rewards for your diligence and determined efforts. You are being commended by the angels as your successes are inspiring and uplifting. You are helping and teaching others by being a positive example for others to follow.

Angel Number 77 indicates that you are being congratulated and your efforts have been well noted by the angelic and spiritual realms. You are on the right life path and are living and serving your Divine life purpose as guided. Due to your efforts, discernment and good choices, your just rewards are on the way into your life. Your angels ask you to ‘keep up the great work!’

Angel Number 77 is a very positive sign and tells you to expect miracles to occur in your life.

Just when I thought nothing was actually moving as fast as I expected, I am glad I encountered this uplifting reminder. I did doubt my abilities a little because I didn’t feel I was going anywhere with my efforts.

Because of my encounter with number 77, I was reminded of another number my angels would constantly remind me about – the number 2. The number 2 has led me to several revelations as of late and I have this feeling it will continue to guide me in the future for answers I still have regarding the angels’ prophecy.

 

Less is More

I’ve been wondering why I have not had any major dreams about ELK this month. I did have a dream this month where he had a minor part in it but when the setting and other details are vague I tend to dismiss the dream as irrelevant. I guess I would only count those dreams I have of him where I can wake up from them feeling desperate wishing for him to be present and cursing the daylight for arriving too soon.

Seeing as I did not even record it in my dream journal the dream in which he had a minor part in, I am glad my memory has not failed me a bit. To provide a context for it, I have worked with my mini moldavite stone during that period. There was a much more grandiose setting and plot in that set of dreams which involved engaging the power of crystals in an ancient tribe war that ELK part appeared to be a mere insert. His presence there seemed more of a voice rather than a physical one – I heard him speak to me and I did miss hearing his voice. He sounded friendly towards me as if he was already comfortable around me; I could feel the smile in his voice. The last thing I could trace in that dream was him asking what I called a million dollar question which started with HOW and ended with GIRL which translated to me as him asking me how does a guy get back the attention of a girl. I didn’t know how I answered him because the dream ended and I was probably speechless anyway.

Because I tend to rationalise things, I did surmise lately that I may have been having less significant dreams about him lately because I have had my dreams of him from two months ago (and even his dreams about me years ago) interpreted by someone who has vast knowledge in dream analysis than I do. It changed my perspective a great deal about my whole journey.

As I am writing this, I am awaiting two more dream interpretations due in 3 days. It was so empowering and liberating to know the layers of perspective that opened up before me all because I gave my chance to question and actively look for answers. The eye-opening theme of the period must be the reason why I have not had any significant dream about ELK. I don’t know if it’s significant to also point out that the last two dreams about him involved hearing his voice a lot.

 

Point of No Return

So I thought I was relieved how liberating it has felt that not only was I shown the bigger picture but also made to understand it. Then as I scrutinised my oscillating emotional responses to each insight I get, I’ve come to a conclusion that the more I see and understand the bigger picture, the bigger my responsibility has become. This conclusion is one of many, perhaps.

The more aware we become, the more responsibility we take on when we relate to others. It is a point of no return; I cannot go back to being bitter and close-minded. It feels almost akin to sin for me to even entertain thoughts about an unfair world because it is in essence a lie. And as Osho would have it, “the only sin is not being honest with one’s self”. Even my weeping seems to have a progression chart of its own. When I had cried before for feelings of loss or heartbreak and rejection, I now find myself crying because of humility – because, at last, I felt “human” and could admit that I was wrong to assume love was not there in the first place.

As I follow bread crumbs of insights, my heart swells with every undiscovered truth and much more so because the truth was mutually felt. I only have months to wait for the culmination of the angels’/guides’ message. However tempting it is to rest on my laurels, the better part of me resists because I know another set of bigger challenges is coming up.

I found that whenever I lose my faith, I lose my footing as well. Last week I encountered a quote in a cellphone cover that came into my possession yet I still was not convinced it was a timely sign meant for me.


Like Einstein, I either know things or don’t know things at all; I’m uncomfortable with the word “believe” as there’s knowing from feeling and intuition. I know by intuition when something’s fucked up and not right, so believing in positive thinking is pointless.

Last night I went through my smorgasbord of a GMail inbox (they advertise these apps to make you organised yet I always unconsciously deviate from being organised) and came across  an Angel Message For The Week subscription e-mail from Maria Loren for the week of December 26th – January 1st.

This Week’s Message:

This card is a sign for that blessings are on the way to you and that you are going to have your material needs met to manifest your goals! You may have found recently that a few worries have arisen about material concerns, but Archangel Ariel brings you through a message to have faith in the flow of life.

Very often the angels will communicate to you through your feelings, and this may come as feelings of knowing, thoughts that come into your mind or inspired ideas. As you follow these messages and your intuition, you will find that your material needs will be met along the way, even if you don’t understand how. Allow the ‘how’ to be take care of by the angels and step into a sense of knowing that it will happen for you. Visualise your dreams manifesting and know that you truly can achieve whatever you have your heart set upon! Sometimes it just takes a little faith and trust.

I discovered that I did miss an e-mail requesting an invoice for translation services on the 28th of December. I don’t know how I missed it in my notifications but Mercury Retrograde had its way. I was only able to reply to the e-mail yesterday afternoon with the invoice. I wanted to kick myself for waiting until January 2nd to send it.

That quote did not come to me by accident. I can’t help but think it reached me because I did miss checking my e-mails that day and missed that angel message that week.

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